..how will I ever heal? I'm so deeply wounded."
-Knife, Rockwell.
I don't know how I keep doing things wrong. No matter how much I try, I never get things right.
I suppose I'm not like other girls. I don't dress like them, I don't talk like them--I feel so...alienated. I feel like I have problems getting along, fitting in. I'm awkward, weird; I just don't belong. And it hurts. It hurts so much.
I suppose I just have this overall disappointed in myself. Disappointed at everything I do, disappointed at being a failure. I even get disappointed that I'm disappointed!
I try to see the bright side, to realise that maybe everything I worry about is just a product of my incredibly pessimistic thoughts.
Maybe I'm just not compatible with people. Maybe I'm supposed to be alone. I can be fine with that. I think.
I just don't understand it. Am I the only one this way? My brothers all have a way with people. I'm the only one who's not. Come to think of it, I'm not alot of things they are. ,smart, good looking, funny, talented.
My family would be perfect if I weren't there.
Perhaps my biggest mistake is being me?
Life would be better for everyone if i was replaced by someone else.
Sorry for wasting your time.
*sigh* i feel the same way.
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HEY YOU TWO!
ReplyDeleteDO YOU WANT ME TO SLAP YOU?!
i felt JUST like that and i cant really say i DONT feel like that anymore but you guys are GORGEOUS both INSIDE AND OUT!
SHUT UP! OKAY?!
if anyone should feel like that, its me. Notice my attention-seeking attitude? Its due to insecurity. Yes. LOL. SO WHY DONT WE ALL BACK EACH OTHER UP AND CHEER UP AND NEVER EVER SCREW UP! AND EVEN IF WE SCREW UP, WE SHOULD TURN TO GOD, THANK HIM FOR MAKING US, US (even tho we are not satisfied with how we are and there are ALWAYS others more better off than us) AND JUST BE HAPPY EXISTING!
Im the midle child in my family, you can imagine how the blame piles up on me whenver things go wrong.. And how i felt when my bro was born. WELL EVERYTHING WIL TURN OUT ALRIGHT. I WILL PRAY FOR YOU BOTH. HAVE FAITH. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!
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SO SMILE!~
sarah here btw sarah tan :)